Legend: NOAH \ MIMI
seemed wasteful | to accent how alone they really were.
heat | an electrical fire.
She is a girl who prides herself on the pain she can endure. She does not brag about the past - oh, no. She does not offer the privilege of her wisdom so easily. Instead she seeps it, in glimpses of information entrusted to the delicately chosen few, a little bit at a time. Then she delivers it like a gift - often it presents itself in a hued, knowing glance, or in the privacy of a text message. Then she unhands it freely. She needs only the open ear. Her scars are definite, gilded. She has earned them.
She will ensure you of her history, and her wisdom. Her age amounts to more than yours, but you’re okay with it, somehow. She has elbowed, waded, and wrestled through this friendship - this love - for years now, and will drag the story along with her just for a chance to remind herself that, “he and I have been through a lot.” She emphasizes that she will do anything for him - anything - and that she has. She will whisper, with horror, that she is “very much in love with him, still.” Her love is the story of the last woman standing.
When he fucks up, she can resort to the luxury of lecture. She is a martyr for his selfish, destructive love, and the two of them know it. Sure, it hurts her deeply. Deeply, desperately deeply. But she will endure, because she loves him, and she is strong. Her love can outlast anything.
She leans against the arms of someone else, the one who looks at her with that familiar smolder, with a glaze of boredom in her searching eyes. It isn’t his underwhelming, but her own distant mind. He skims the curve of her scalp and drags the hair a little there and she feels…nothing.
Noah Gentile has not, and does not plan to consume methamphetamines. It was a literary hyperbole.
1. los angeles
2. developmental psychology
3. finding character motivation in literature
4. the assembly of a PA system
5. shading
6. how to determine when to refrain from anything
7. the appreciation of a good cup of tea
8. the smoking of cigarettes
9. THE ROLLING OF SPLIFFS
10. sleeping
11. covert psychoanalysis
12. pipe cleaner sculpture (small scale)